[ He isn't aware that he's doing it at first - reaching out for Claude, the way he's reached for so many other things throughout the years, knowing intrinsically that it wasn't ever the thing itself but the matter it was made from, calling out to him. He's breathing unevenly, pressing against Claude and holding onto him both, whilst he senses how warm he is, all firm muscles and smooth skin -
Is that you says Claude, his voice a little befuddled and it breaks through the haze of want in Anakin's mind. He blinks, staring at the shadows tracking across Claude's features, realising that he's grasping him with everything, a small, irritating part of him telling him that this isn't how you engage with the Force, Anakin, don't be frivolous and he squashes that thought like a bug, feeling slightly petty about it, maybe. Slightly. Anyway, smash. Gone.
Meanwhile, Claude turns in his arms, slipping both his own around Anakin's shoulders and holding himself in the water like that, his cheeks beautifully flushed. Anakin wants to kiss him. He wishes he could. Instead, he nods, feeling himself trembling slightly without quite understanding why. He pushes his hand beneath the water, curving his fingers against Claude's side, right where his ribs are most prominent beneath his skin. He traces them slowly, the bumps, the edges. Claude has them, too. In that, they are only slightly different, he thinks, if Claude will allow it and he does, he keeps saying so.
They can be a little alike, then.
Mirrors for each other, if a little banged up. ]
Okay.
[ He closes his eyes and feels him again, more strongly now. His thighs, yes, and then the insides of them, the soft skin there - yes. So soft. Warm. He groans, taking him in, following the lines of muscle and flesh inwards, feeling how he grows warmer, hotter, as he slips between his legs. His balls, he finds, are not too heavy yet. He thinks about stroking them, about folding the water around them and he can sense the water moving, then, the molecules shifting at his bidding. ]
[ Okay, says Anakin, meaning yes, it's me, his hand dropping below the surface of the water, tracing Claude's ribs and it tickles a little, but in a pleasant, slightly overstimulated way and Claude doesn't want him to stop, doesn't want him to ever stop, this.
Hearing himself gasp slightly, he feels the pressure of water move inward between his legs, thighs, inner thighs, up. Although it doesn't ask and neither does Anakin, Claude shifts again, spreading himself open slightly, welcoming it, the warm sense of motion and push, like the water's actually folding around his balls, massaging them from all sides at once. He isn't even aware that he's making noise until the moan is done, echoing slightly in the crisp, cool air all around them. He moans again, spreading himself as wide as he can go from this angle which isn't overly much, but it'll do. Like everything else, it feels nice, so it's welcome. It's enough.
Leaning forward, in against Anakin, forehead coming to a rest against his shoulder, he feels his hips beginning to quiver slightly, that need to move, to push back, to push in feeling almost overwhelmingly intense. He turns his face in against the side of Anakin's neck, staring at the darkness of his own shadow, breathing too fast for anything constructive to come of it. There's a faintness to his body, a lightness now. He likes that. A bit out of sorts, it's good. Groaning now, he pushes in against the pressure, tries to find some sort of tightness in it. He's rock hard now, he needs... Kriff, he needs...
Anakin is touching him with absolutely everything that he is.
And still, Claude needs. Means needing isn't wrong. Means needing it all they've got left at this point. The next groan is thick, like something's in his throat.
Something's in his throat. He reaches up with one hand, running his palm over the back of Anakin's skull, following his scalp, digging in his fingers just slightly more desperately now, sorry. ]
You feel amazing, you have no idea, you feel... like so much... Anakin...
[ Another groan, low, that old part of him that Rainier got to first still holding back. Not out of spite, but out of fear. There are connections that only last as long as you're in each other, around each other, on, with. He doesn't want it to end.
[ He's deep in the sensation of Claude, of feeling the way the whole world seems to shape itself around him. The other man, meanwhile, quivers beneath him, his body aching to go, even though he's being as patient as ever, holding himself back, really, because Claude will do that in the name of fairness, of decency. When he grabs onto Anakin's head just a little roughly, fingers digging into his skin and making his nerves twinge, he's doing the most he'll allow himself, holding onto Anakin but never enough to take.
Anakin wants him to take. Whatever he needs, whatever he wants. But now, with years of damage and pain and grief tracking his every step, he understands that some things change you, make you less than what you were and he doesn't want that for Claude, either, never in a million years. It's a difficult balance for most, he'd expect, and for Anakin, it's impossible. He'll never achieve it.
But he can follow Claude now and get a sense of what it's like. ]
Tell me what you want.
[ He can imagine but he won't presume and he won't project, just because he knows what he wants. Even with his body as maimed and lacking as it is, his brain understands perfectly well the feel of Claude's thighs, his balls, and the urgency inherent to the way his muscles are shivering when the water drapes itself around him. He understands the breathiness in his voice and it translates itself perfectly into whatever remains of his bloodstream. With another harsh intake of breath, he folds himself, his reach, around Claude's half-hard cock, the water shaping itself like a warm, wet tunnel around his length. ]
[ Even now, even like this, they don't give up on their principles, Claude especially - doesn't. Let go. He sucks in a sharp breath, feeling the water shaping around his cock, rock hard in seconds in response, like something snuck and tight and wet, all at once, and it's almost too much, it's like wanting to take, but knowing you need the get-go, that waiting time, quivering, shaking for it. But as always, like he's done from the very first time Claude fucked him, Anakin meets him, not on the middle, but all the way up in Claude's zone, telling him... asking him to tell him, what you want, and Claude is dizzy from the overwhelming intensity of it at this point. He licks his lips a couple of times, trying to center himself and finding it almost impossible, knowing that Anakin is bending the material of the kriffing universe around him, for his kriffing sake and it's such a love declaration, he doesn't know what to do with that. Except accept. Take. Take.
His hips push into the hole of water, pushing in against the walls of it, soft but unyielding, like something's innermost, like... Kriff.
Pushing his head off Anakin's shoulder, he blinks against the light and shivers in the chill around his shoulders, meeting Anakin's gaze straight on. He wants to say it to his face, he wants to see him react. To Claude learning, too, not just one way between them, but both ways at once. Anakin to curb his greed and for Claude to allow it, more. ]
I want to feel you -- everywhere, all parts of you.
[ His voice sounds hoarse and low, deep in his throat. Reaching down with his free hand, he takes Anakin's wrist, submerged in water, fingers spread out over his midriff, pulling at him, pulling him up, chest, pecs, nipples, leads him to roam. Take him that way, too. At the same time.
The Force as Anakin knows it, uses it, doesn't scare him and he'll take his Jedi tricks, too. He'll take them happily. He'll take them.
[ His breath catches in his throat when Claude starts thrusting upwards, his mental hold around him tightening just a fraction, carefully, so carefully. He meets the other man's gaze as they look at each other, seeing him blink against the light from the treetops. Around them, the backyard is almost completely quiet, except for the distant sound of the waves, lapping against the shore on the other side of the house. It's late out here in the mountain ranges and the world can be quiet, it seems, when there's enough space to allow the seemingly constant noise a chance to dissipate.
I want to feel you says Claude while Anakin, in turn, feels all of him, in his mind, against his body. When he drags his hand upwards along his torso, Anakin looks at him for another moment, feeling simultaneously centered within himself, within this little world they've made together, and wrung inside-out. He wants him. He wants more of him. And Claude, in turn, wants all of him so here they are, then, in the quiet, catching up to each other at last.
He shifts again, slipping his other hand into Claude's hair, cradling it between his fingers in a way that's starting to feel not just familiar but safe, like recognising a homeward path. He smiles and frees his other hand gently from Claude's grip, reaching up to clip off his mask, dropping it into the water. The air feels raw when he takes his next breath and it will hold him only for a moment - but that's what they have, anyway, isn't it. A moment. And then, strings of them, woven together slowly but surely.
Leaning in, he kisses Claude, sucking briefly on his lower lip before slipping his tongue inside, catching his warmth like that along with his breath.
Then, he runs his hand over his chest, finding his left nipple, first, and fingering it, the hot water lapping against his wrist. Beneath the surface, he keeps the slide of water around Claude's cock tight but pliant and it reminds him of other times, other days, the two of them entwined on the sheets somewhere in the sunlight with Claude pushing into him, connected and close. He groans against the other man's lips. ]
[ The tightness of the water, the soft, slick hold of it, seems to narrow in, following the whole length of his cock, balls to tip and Claude is very close to going cross-eyed from it, especially as Anakin dislodges his mask and leans in, fingers finding Claude's nipple, fingering it insistently and it's so much. There's so much of him, still. He's not dead, he's not gone, and he's back here with Claude again, so much of him, despite everything they've lost, all the time, all the sense of self. Feeling his eyes well up, he lets them fall closed as Anakin leans in and kisses him, opening his mouth to him, parting his lips and letting himself be taken, in turn. While his hips pick up a faster pace, pushing in against Anakin's Force-grip, fucking into the tight hole of it. Anakin groans against him, Claude groans with him, into him and they're connected everywhere, they might as well be one person, one body --
The thought overpowers him suddenly, the feeling of connection, of being with and being inside and his thrusts grow harder, more desperate, chasing the need for release, the need for pushing every little last bit of himself into Anakin, everything Anakin is, he... Oh.
He gasps, clutching at Anakin's shoulders now, holding on to him too tightly, the slide and the friction getting too much, getting -- almost -- Oh.
Another gasp, thicker, wetter and he breaks the kiss the breathe, fighting for it, hurling against the edge until suddenly, suddenly he's flying, he's light and he's stars, oh kriff. He makes a small, vulnerable sound as he comes, staring wide-eyed into Anakin's face, seeing all of him, all that he is.
Feeling it, too.
Tears are tracking down his cheeks. His hips pushing, pushing, pushing, until also they still, slowly, tiredly, the water streaked with his cum, the whole load. Claude inhales, exhales, inhales, unevenly.
For once, he can't speak. Something beyond words just happened between them. ]
[ Claude holds onto him and Anakin doesn't let up, doesn't let go and for once, it doesn't ruin anything or kill anyone; he holds no illusions anymore with regards to himself, he's a tool for destruction first and preciously little beyond that. Claude makes it feel like more, though, he makes it feel like nothing else really matters and Anakin believes him. When Claude breaks the kiss, he stays close, feeling his body tightening against him, his thrusts growing more frantic and desperate. They keep it like that, then, letting it progress.
When Claude comes, he makes a sound that Anakin can't describe, it's small and sweet and full of something that he'd never expect to be given by anyone again, nor does he deserve it. Claude deserves to give whatever he wants of himself to whomever he chooses, however, and all other aspects of the universe must, necessarily, yield to that. He's comfortable with that idea. He always has been. He keeps his hold on him through his climax, until Claude's hips still and his breathing grows slower, though no less ragged. Anakin, in turn, has been out of breath for several seconds too long and he grabs his mask with the Force, plunging it back onto his face, uncaring about the wetness of it and how it makes his first intake of breath feel like he's basically inhaling half the tub.
All he cares about is how complete this feels. The two of them, in the quiet together.
Yeah, he's alright with that.
Shifting, he slips his arm around Claude's shoulders and pulls him close against his side, leaning back against the tub. He closes his eyes, his hold on the Force lessening to nothing, except perhaps for a hint of pressure against Claude's midriff, like a warm palm, lingering only briefly. ]
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Is that you says Claude, his voice a little befuddled and it breaks through the haze of want in Anakin's mind. He blinks, staring at the shadows tracking across Claude's features, realising that he's grasping him with everything, a small, irritating part of him telling him that this isn't how you engage with the Force, Anakin, don't be frivolous and he squashes that thought like a bug, feeling slightly petty about it, maybe. Slightly. Anyway, smash. Gone.
Meanwhile, Claude turns in his arms, slipping both his own around Anakin's shoulders and holding himself in the water like that, his cheeks beautifully flushed. Anakin wants to kiss him. He wishes he could. Instead, he nods, feeling himself trembling slightly without quite understanding why. He pushes his hand beneath the water, curving his fingers against Claude's side, right where his ribs are most prominent beneath his skin. He traces them slowly, the bumps, the edges. Claude has them, too. In that, they are only slightly different, he thinks, if Claude will allow it and he does, he keeps saying so.
They can be a little alike, then.
Mirrors for each other, if a little banged up. ]
Okay.
[ He closes his eyes and feels him again, more strongly now. His thighs, yes, and then the insides of them, the soft skin there - yes. So soft. Warm. He groans, taking him in, following the lines of muscle and flesh inwards, feeling how he grows warmer, hotter, as he slips between his legs. His balls, he finds, are not too heavy yet. He thinks about stroking them, about folding the water around them and he can sense the water moving, then, the molecules shifting at his bidding. ]
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Hearing himself gasp slightly, he feels the pressure of water move inward between his legs, thighs, inner thighs, up. Although it doesn't ask and neither does Anakin, Claude shifts again, spreading himself open slightly, welcoming it, the warm sense of motion and push, like the water's actually folding around his balls, massaging them from all sides at once. He isn't even aware that he's making noise until the moan is done, echoing slightly in the crisp, cool air all around them. He moans again, spreading himself as wide as he can go from this angle which isn't overly much, but it'll do. Like everything else, it feels nice, so it's welcome. It's enough.
Leaning forward, in against Anakin, forehead coming to a rest against his shoulder, he feels his hips beginning to quiver slightly, that need to move, to push back, to push in feeling almost overwhelmingly intense. He turns his face in against the side of Anakin's neck, staring at the darkness of his own shadow, breathing too fast for anything constructive to come of it. There's a faintness to his body, a lightness now. He likes that. A bit out of sorts, it's good. Groaning now, he pushes in against the pressure, tries to find some sort of tightness in it. He's rock hard now, he needs... Kriff, he needs...
Anakin is touching him with absolutely everything that he is.
And still, Claude needs. Means needing isn't wrong. Means needing it all they've got left at this point. The next groan is thick, like something's in his throat.
Something's in his throat. He reaches up with one hand, running his palm over the back of Anakin's skull, following his scalp, digging in his fingers just slightly more desperately now, sorry. ]
You feel amazing, you have no idea, you feel... like so much... Anakin...
[ Another groan, low, that old part of him that Rainier got to first still holding back. Not out of spite, but out of fear. There are connections that only last as long as you're in each other, around each other, on, with. He doesn't want it to end.
That's all. ]
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Anakin wants him to take. Whatever he needs, whatever he wants. But now, with years of damage and pain and grief tracking his every step, he understands that some things change you, make you less than what you were and he doesn't want that for Claude, either, never in a million years. It's a difficult balance for most, he'd expect, and for Anakin, it's impossible. He'll never achieve it.
But he can follow Claude now and get a sense of what it's like. ]
Tell me what you want.
[ He can imagine but he won't presume and he won't project, just because he knows what he wants. Even with his body as maimed and lacking as it is, his brain understands perfectly well the feel of Claude's thighs, his balls, and the urgency inherent to the way his muscles are shivering when the water drapes itself around him. He understands the breathiness in his voice and it translates itself perfectly into whatever remains of his bloodstream. With another harsh intake of breath, he folds himself, his reach, around Claude's half-hard cock, the water shaping itself like a warm, wet tunnel around his length. ]
Go on, my love. Tell me.
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His hips push into the hole of water, pushing in against the walls of it, soft but unyielding, like something's innermost, like... Kriff.
Pushing his head off Anakin's shoulder, he blinks against the light and shivers in the chill around his shoulders, meeting Anakin's gaze straight on. He wants to say it to his face, he wants to see him react. To Claude learning, too, not just one way between them, but both ways at once. Anakin to curb his greed and for Claude to allow it, more. ]
I want to feel you -- everywhere, all parts of you.
[ His voice sounds hoarse and low, deep in his throat. Reaching down with his free hand, he takes Anakin's wrist, submerged in water, fingers spread out over his midriff, pulling at him, pulling him up, chest, pecs, nipples, leads him to roam. Take him that way, too. At the same time.
The Force as Anakin knows it, uses it, doesn't scare him and he'll take his Jedi tricks, too. He'll take them happily. He'll take them.
His hips push forward again, harder this time. ]
All parts of you.
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I want to feel you says Claude while Anakin, in turn, feels all of him, in his mind, against his body. When he drags his hand upwards along his torso, Anakin looks at him for another moment, feeling simultaneously centered within himself, within this little world they've made together, and wrung inside-out. He wants him. He wants more of him. And Claude, in turn, wants all of him so here they are, then, in the quiet, catching up to each other at last.
He shifts again, slipping his other hand into Claude's hair, cradling it between his fingers in a way that's starting to feel not just familiar but safe, like recognising a homeward path. He smiles and frees his other hand gently from Claude's grip, reaching up to clip off his mask, dropping it into the water. The air feels raw when he takes his next breath and it will hold him only for a moment - but that's what they have, anyway, isn't it. A moment. And then, strings of them, woven together slowly but surely.
Leaning in, he kisses Claude, sucking briefly on his lower lip before slipping his tongue inside, catching his warmth like that along with his breath.
Then, he runs his hand over his chest, finding his left nipple, first, and fingering it, the hot water lapping against his wrist. Beneath the surface, he keeps the slide of water around Claude's cock tight but pliant and it reminds him of other times, other days, the two of them entwined on the sheets somewhere in the sunlight with Claude pushing into him, connected and close. He groans against the other man's lips. ]
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The thought overpowers him suddenly, the feeling of connection, of being with and being inside and his thrusts grow harder, more desperate, chasing the need for release, the need for pushing every little last bit of himself into Anakin, everything Anakin is, he... Oh.
He gasps, clutching at Anakin's shoulders now, holding on to him too tightly, the slide and the friction getting too much, getting -- almost -- Oh.
Another gasp, thicker, wetter and he breaks the kiss the breathe, fighting for it, hurling against the edge until suddenly, suddenly he's flying, he's light and he's stars, oh kriff. He makes a small, vulnerable sound as he comes, staring wide-eyed into Anakin's face, seeing all of him, all that he is.
Feeling it, too.
Tears are tracking down his cheeks. His hips pushing, pushing, pushing, until also they still, slowly, tiredly, the water streaked with his cum, the whole load. Claude inhales, exhales, inhales, unevenly.
For once, he can't speak. Something beyond words just happened between them. ]
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When Claude comes, he makes a sound that Anakin can't describe, it's small and sweet and full of something that he'd never expect to be given by anyone again, nor does he deserve it. Claude deserves to give whatever he wants of himself to whomever he chooses, however, and all other aspects of the universe must, necessarily, yield to that. He's comfortable with that idea. He always has been. He keeps his hold on him through his climax, until Claude's hips still and his breathing grows slower, though no less ragged. Anakin, in turn, has been out of breath for several seconds too long and he grabs his mask with the Force, plunging it back onto his face, uncaring about the wetness of it and how it makes his first intake of breath feel like he's basically inhaling half the tub.
All he cares about is how complete this feels. The two of them, in the quiet together.
Yeah, he's alright with that.
Shifting, he slips his arm around Claude's shoulders and pulls him close against his side, leaning back against the tub. He closes his eyes, his hold on the Force lessening to nothing, except perhaps for a hint of pressure against Claude's midriff, like a warm palm, lingering only briefly. ]